Friday, October 15, 2010

Day 817: Lacking Focus

I hate to tell you… but I am totally burnt!  I am completely spent.  I’m working something like 60 to 70 hours a week over here.  I don’t think that’s healthy.  And I’m only two months in… two more to go before my first R&R.  Erg!


But, beyond work… I’m a to-do list-a-holic.  When I come home, I’m not simply kicking back in my smoking jacket watching movies… well… yes, I’m watching movies… but I’m a bit more obsessive compulsive than most of you may realize.  I have a hard time cutting myself a break… and I certainly have a hard time relaxing.  There is always something to do.


I’m cooking all of my own meals.  I’m starting to study Dutch in preparation of Paramaribo.  I’m also studying for a couple computer certifications I want to get.  I’m writing a book… organizing my iTunes library… writing the blog… designing a website… the list goes on and on… not that any of these things are necessary… but I just have a hard time sitting still… so I might as well use this time on my own productively and better myself… Serena doesn’t get a break, why should I?


But, I have been so unfocused and frazzled lately.  I haven’t even had time to finish this month’s family video!


I’ll get there though… I’ll push through.


Don’t worry about me… just be willing to put up with a little more randomness while I regroup a little longer.


By God!  I will finish ‘The Chair’!

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